Sunday, May 18, 2008

Goodbye my lover...


I find myself among these four walls...If the walls could speak, may be they will tell lots of stories...
This year has been really tough and now it's time to move on, to leave all behind and start again with a new life...It's time to erase the small pieces of memories which still remain here...
I really feel sad, this is the most similar way of a tangible break up and I have to do it by myself,...
I've never got the opportunity to get an explanation, a sorry or just a simple goodbye...No one asked me if I was agree or what was my opinion about it
It was really hard for me to reach this point and decide to continue on with my life, in one way I was attached to this and internally, in the depth of my heart, I wanted to still embrace the memories to keep alive the feeling inside me...
But despite of any snippet of feeling I'm determined to give this new step in my life and pursue any small hint of happiness...
In one way or another I have to build a new life and live the present to reach the future...
I left behing all the happiness, all the love we shared, all the secrets and interminable wishes and hopes, all the projects for the future and all the plans, but the most important thing is that I left all the tears I shed during these months, the suffering and the loneliness...The horrible feeling of being stuck and trapped in a hole from where I can't get out.
Now it's time of being optimistic and take care of myself as noone will do it for me...If someone really loves you s/he will never make you suffer...

I wanna give thanks to all those people who have helped me out during this year, who have been very supportive and understanding and who have been always there to listen to me without judging me. Thanks for your unconditional friendship and for the small details which showed me that I've met the loveliest people. You can always count on me and if I move definitely to Galway be sure that you won't loose sight of me lol...
In the next post I will introduce you properly and I will attach pictures from Linda's birthday!!!

Love ya all!!!!

Goodbye my Lover (James Blunt)

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

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